My special interests

What is a special interest?

A special interest is like a lens through which the whole world is better. It’s not just really liking something, or even constantly wishing I could be engaging with it when I’m not. When a special interest is active, I actually am engaging with it all the time, no matter what I’m doing. It’s constantly on my mind and everything I experience is processed through it and related to it. And that doesn’t necessarily mean I’m distracted all the time (although I might be). Sometimes it can actively help me concentrate, understand, or enjoy something.

It’s absolutely not voluntary, I don’t choose what they are or how or when they happen. I think finding a new special interest is a bit like getting to know a person. It’s different every time – sometimes the first moment you meet them you know you will get along. Other times they seem unremarkable at first but every new thing you learn about them makes them more interesting. And you can’t decide who you will become friends with and who you will dislike, it just happens.

For me, the key feature of a special interest is about learning. I have an insatiable desire for information about a subject, and the joy of absorbing and organising that information is unparalleled. The more information I find, the more fascinated I become – like a feedback loop. If something ‘gets me started’, then I can easily end up excitedly infodumping everything I know about an interest to someone. But most of the time, I don’t have any need to share my interests with others. In fact, it sometimes surprises people when they learn just how much time I spend thinking about something which I rarely talk about.

I didn’t quite ‘get’ the idea of a special interest when I was first learning about autism. The only information I could find was the stereotype of the autistic kid being obsessed with memorising train timetables. I’m writing about some of my special interests here, in the hope that others might learn something, or find something to relate to. Mine have varied widely throughout my life, and most of them don’t have any connection to each other – so I’ve chosen a selection!

Horses

This is probably the oldest interest. I collected books about horses and learnt everything I could about them. I wasn’t interested in the idea of riding them, or even having much to do with them in reality. I loved the amazing way their legs moved and the sound of their hooves on the road. I spent so much time drawing and re-drawing horses, perfecting individual features like the shape of their faces and the feathering on their hooves. Nowadays pretty much any animal I try to draw will be based on the horse ‘template’ because it’s so fixed in my head. I still get incredibly excited when I see horses walking down the road, and I’m still fascinated by the way their legs work and the way they look.

Stationery

I’d say this is the longest-running interest. For my entire life I’ve been fascinated by stationery. The most exciting part of school was buying and organising all the stationery I was going to use. I spent hours planning my filing systems and organisational arrangements, deciding exactly which folder to use for what and preparing refill pads and dividers. Even way back before I actually needed to use my own stationery for school, I would collect and catalogue it. I’d plan out elaborate systems and projects just so that I could buy and arrange stationery. This interest is just as active as it’s always been. I still get a thrill from planning a new system, and buying stationery is one of my main sources of ‘retail therapy’.

Chernobyl meltdown

This one is a lot more recent. It started very suddenly when I came across an article about Chernobyl. I got ‘sucked in’ and immediately started devouring everything I could find on the internet. My trek through the Wikipedia article led me on to related information about nuclear reactors, other meltdowns, the dangers of nuclear radiation. It was an intense few days and then dropped off fairly quickly. But I’m still fascinated by it and could easily find myself ‘sucked in’ again. If anyone were to bring it up in conversation it would probably be difficult for me not to infodump everything I’ve ever learnt about it.

Baking

Another recent one, this started a few years ago. I became obsessed with figuring out the fundamental ratios that defined recipes, and working out exactly how the chemical processes in baking worked. I spent a lot of time doing research online and from books, and a relatively small proportion of time doing actual ‘experiments’ with baking. This became dormant when I sort of ran out of basic foods to learn about. Once I’d figured out the definitions of ‘muffin’, ‘cake’, and ‘bread’, I wasn’t particularly interested in customising or perfecting them.

Gerbils

This is the most recent, starting just over a year ago – when I got my pet gerbils! I spend a lot of time arranging and rearranging their cage, planning and making toys, playing with them, training them, thinking about what to feed them, and just watching them. I find all animal behaviour fascinating, and gerbils especially. I like seeing them interact with each other, dig burrows, and chew cardboard – it’s fascinating to wonder what is going on in their minds. Not to mention they are absolutely adorable!

Autism!

This is probably the most obvious one, because… I’m writing it on a dedicated autism blog! It started around two years ago. At first, I just thought that I had an inexplicable fascination with it. Eventually I realised there was a reason for that: when I realised I was autistic. After that the interest just got stronger and stronger, and even moreso after my diagnosis. It might one day become dormant like many of the others, but I can’t quite imagine it.

 

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4 thoughts on “My special interests

  1. ‘A lens through which the whole world is better’ is one of the best descriptions of special interests I’ve read.

    I’ve been realising over the last couple of months that Autism is my special interest now too. It’s crept up on me, like they often do.

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  2. “In fact, it sometimes surprises people when they learn just how much time I spend thinking about something which I rarely talk about.”

    Story of my life!

    Nice blog entry.

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  3. I’ll admit I’ve been hesitant on making my special interests known to the masses but, the way in which you express them makes it seem perfectly normal by all accounts. Thanks.

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